I sleep with my windows open

I sing with my eyes closed

Sometimes I lose my vision

And nobody around me knows

Come into my quiet

There’s no one else there sometimes

Things are stuck on the windowpane

Stuck to the humid old white paint

And I can’t get you off my mind

Come into my hiding

Everybody’s watching the same TV inside

Come 'cause I’m a train running from the weight

Come into my making up my mind

Come into my quiet

It’s on the road again

But I…I’ll wait, I’ll wait for you

This world is beautiful as I have ever seen

it’s chirping in the morning, spread beneath your feet

You look as beautiful as I have ever dreamed

you’re coming to wake me, please let me keep

My lust for life it makes me wet

I confess

Rain rolls like down the square like sweat on a sleeping face

outside in the summertime on the wrinkles that you made walking like this

My lust for life it makes me cry

in this city so close to the sky

So you want to see the world

So you want to see the world

You want to see it do things like this

You want to see it sleep, you want to see its mist

You want to see it break and see it take - its time

So you want to see the world

So you want to see the world

You want to see it high you want to see its light

You want to see it come you hear its hum

You want to feel its fire and hear its quiet

Even this abundance will grow tired inside of me

Even this green life will grow tired inside of me

Even this unbearable joy will grow tired in me

My lust for life it makes me wet

And there’s rivers running down your face

in the wrinkles that you made walking like this

I get cold on my own

Don’t have enough meat on my bones

Don’t have enough meat

When you hold me close to my bones

You warm me when I am cold

You warm me

Where do I want to go once I am free?

It is better to love in the morning, you said,

Than to hold up my head against the window and wish

Collect my dreams like this

It is better to love than to count

All the mistakes we have made and to doubt

The ways of your mind, waiting for a sign

Where do I want to go once I am free?

It is better to love in a war

It is better to love when you’re bored

It is better to love you more

It is better to love in a hospital bed

It is better to love than to pretend

You can make it through unscathed until you’re dead

Where do I want to go once I am free?

I get cold on my own

Don’t have enough meat on my bones

Don’t have enough meat

When you hold me close to my bones

You warm me when I am cold

You warm me

Where do I want to go once I am free?

I can buy a house to fill

With your things to keep me still

I can pray to God above

And inside, within my mind

I don’t want to be alone

I don’t want to talk about it

Sometimes I feel bad about it

I don’t want to be alone

Oh how my heart aches

Oh how my heart reaches out for your affection

When the world is beautiful

When the world becomes cold

I don’t want to be alone

I don’t want to be alone

Oh how my heart aches

Oh how my heart reaches out for your affection

And oh how your shadow

Weighs on my waiting for connection

When I’m standing on the edge

Of the end, in the sun

I want to see you out there

Just like me: oblivious

Oh how my heart aches

Oh how my heart reaches out for connection

Oh how my heart weighs

Oh how I wait for your affection

Angela - Dawn is hours away

Swaddled in scarves and boiling eggs

And building me a nest

Of IKEA storage solutions

To fill and empty again

When I’m daunted by decisions

I’ve been waking in sweat

From dreams full of fire

Thirsty with desire

To crawl inside you

I’ve got friends

I’ve got mothers and fathers

Who love me and I think I’m lucky

Sometimes I feel so alone

It’s like it’s make believe

Tell me to go back home

You know my fears

And I know you too

You got mad at me

When I booked a flight one time

So me and my friend took a boat

To an island instead

I’m like a cat

If you pull my tail I’ll run away

But I’ll be sad in the other room

That you couldn’t wait around

Baby I know you’re sensitive as glue

You just want more

To know the things I do

I’m a daughter

I think your birthmarks are like the night sky

Fixed and turning

And something I can draw lines between

I’m like a cat

If you leave the door cracked

I’ll come and widen it

I’ll leave my ears open against the wall

I’ll do my best not to assume the worst when you call

There will always be places to crawl and you’ll be looking at me

With those wide eyes, with those wide eyes

You know there’ll be days when I’ll slink away

I’ll study the shadows you leave with your face in the lamplight

I’ll speak to your insomnia and I’ll jump on you all night

and make you feel better for not dreaming

I will hold impossible anxieties with one look

In those wide eyes, with those wide eyes

With those wide eyes, with those wide eyes

I’m like a cat

if you wait for me, I’ll come to you

And I’ll lay my weight upon you

Til you’re not afraid

Come from under the sky

Into spring, if just inside

Windows wide with the heat on high

My devotion lies

And if I stay at home

While you fly on a trip to Rome

Honey I am not alone

My devotion grows

Holding all the world so womanly

Tell me how you move so freely

Seek me out someone to fight

Show me how keep my head on right

Now open wide, your body locked into mine

See the ocean rise

Call to my enemies

To fuck, to forgive, release

Can you see them in me?

My devotion bleeds

Holding all the world so womanly

Tell me how you move so free

When you are holding me tight

Little sounds of delight

Escape my mouth or they might

Putter out weak

Like a bird learning to speak

Ecstatic praise stuck in the beak

Oh my love

I am too fragile for bliss

I grip too hard and it slips

You are undressing inside

And here am I thinking about how we’ll die

With you I have doubled my life

Oh my love

I am too fragile for bliss

I grip too hard and it slips

Now we’re on the edge of a cliff

Watching the ripe melon pink sun set

Its blood all throughout the sky

And the ocean below

That would swallow us whole

With one misstep

Holding each other

Like it’s all that there is

I am too fragile for bliss

In the city, people kill for quietness to fill

Oh my pretty one, you had a taste and now there’s none

I remember you blending into the land

And what a shame we can’t be like that again

The wind it called today and it whispered your name

I wondered if the lights were on when it came

And how light must we be to let it make us happy?

I want to wake up listening to quiet sounds with you

Where the blanket of the night sings ‘til morning dew

I want to be unshaken by the light we are drawn to

It looks far away but maybe we’ll be one of the few

Am I selfish? Am I strange? Am I losing my way?

Too restless to stay and hard to break

And take you away

Where no one hears us when we speak

Where no one hears us when we sleep

Where no one hears us when we breathe

Where no one hears us

I kiss you and see banisters

Kitchen full of herbs

Windows at five o’clock

I’d give you all my future

For a well-set dinner table

I am no conqueror

We came home

From biking up the big hill

Your apartment building

Was black and without windows

The guts of home

Spilling out the empty space

And the smell of all we planned for

I am no conqueror

All the pieces that we gather

To bring and keep us here

Sleeping with four noisemakers

And sponge stuffed in our ears

Oh the days feel so long

But baby it’s been years

I am no conqueror

My hands are numb and my stomach’s sour

You’re platinum league in StarCraft

I have two therapists now

I lay with my face to the earth

And my dog sits on my head while I do yoga

I am no conqueror

Our bodies are frail

We are made of wonder and pain

Christening New York City

By crying on every train

But for you oh for you

I’d do it all again

I am no conqueror

I can’t save all the bees

I weep and I weep

I weep and I weep

Nearly naked in the hospital chairs

Stripped down to our barest skin

Cause when the heat’s on high she’s still cold

Charcoal juice turns her teeth and fingers black

Swims like a swarm all peaceful in her body

Easy we say

Chug chug chug chug chug chug chug it up

And please don’t try to die again

I painted for the bleary-eyed nurses

An aquifer to bathe in when their work is done

You touched the walls of our house today

Said don’t be afraid god of abraham lives here

Come closer still

The cold is bright and you are washing clothes

In the back room where we keep our bugs

Come closer still

Take out mother’s recipes

I’ll cut the corners where I please

Too volatile for a child

But I’m a wife now

I keep the bones from what you eat

Inside my freezer

To bring when you feel sick

You’ll come to me

And drink drink drink

Is this my role

The preacher told me so

I myself I’ve got fears

That I don’t understand

I’ve been steeping in what they said

Though I don’t believe in it

Can I find you through the shit

Soft skin I believe in

Warm breath I breathe in

Back when I thought that you would distract me from god
The wind was still at your call

I pulled your flesh above my head

In you my chosen one

Forgive me that I want to be where you are

If only for you I will pray

Here from my solitude

I can see your place

Miles away

In a stroke of blue

A silent mind

You'll be out of time

Out of town

Or was that what you said

Faith was all about

Love would you say it again

I’m beginning to doubt it

Don’t know of what I’m afraid

But I’m thinking about it

And now reading articles online

Watch your lonely body

Come into mine

Love would you close your eyes

I’m feeling for places

Between you and I

How wide the space is

It will take our whole lives

Crossing toward beside us

Watch what grows inside of

Now that you belong to me

I’ll keep my hunger where you can see

It startles so easily

Moves to quiet frequencies

When I’m closed you kiss my neck

Find my pores drink my sweat

No need to push for it

Cause you know the body

Is a million tiny entrances

We’re traveling in a new land

Helpless to demand

Still learning the tongue                      

But you don’t know where you’re going

So I trust you

I trust you

See the buildings way up high

How they watch you

Up like feathers when you’re cold

How they’ll hold you

It’s like walking on the land

In your bare feet

It’s like touching your own hand

Til you’re asleep

When you cry I’ll hold you tight

Like you’re upside down

When you cry you’ll water god

Like a front lawn

Winds will follow you wherever you go

Winds will carry you wherever you go

I’ll rock you like the wind shaking the windows